I must admit, I always longed to have some time to myself. A week of just being my lonesome is something that I have secretly wished for as long as I can remember. Having been in a family of five siblings, you can identify to where I was coming from. A year after I was born, I already knew the value of sharing; toys, room, clothes, what have you. My brothers started coming from my mother's womb that is why. Things changed a bit in college but I was too busy fitting in, growing up, and finishing my course to even notice. When the reality of me getting what I wished for is about to slap me in the face, my brothers have now started college and moved in with me. So much for my wish.
Fast forward about five years later. Now I am married and have actually gone accustomed to being with somebody, my life partner...my wife! I couldn't imagine any morning waking up without seeing her by my side. Or just the thought of us cuddling in the morning just before getting up and ourselves ready for work. Well, actually, I do leave home from time to time but mainly for business related travel but other than that, my Christine and I are inseparable. But then, opportunities both knocked on our door. She had to go for a three-month internship to Geneva, Switzerland. Now that is an opportunity I would let her just let by so without hesitation, I told her to go for it. To some extent, I even pushed her to do it. It is for her own professional good and I would not let poor sentimentalism get our better judgment.
It has been three weeks since she left, I have been to Hongkong, London, Mexico and back! Things have changed a lot! It is quite difficult to be going home to an empty house and cooking dinner for myself. It is even more difficult sleeping alone in our bed at night and waking up in the morning with nobody to talk to. It also took a lot of getting used to during weekends either at home or going to church.
Oh well, I know that I can't just sulk my day away. There are plenty of things to do and books for me to read. Better yet, I'd seriously consider hitting the gym and start shedding off some pounds. Come to think of it, I will look much much better when I hug my wife at the airport in November. It's just around the corner and who knows what lies ahead of that afterwards. A baby perhaps? Just wishing!
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