For the past few days, I have been burning Youtube and Google on anything and everything Korean. Korea is very near the Philippines and since TV networks started importing canned shows from nearby countries, Korea, Japan and Taiwan, in particular, we have been bombarded every day with all sorts of drama coming from our East Asian neighbors. The did this to save on production costs as in the earlier days, all imported TV shows come from the US and there when Cable TV arrived, TV networks went all Filipino in their production. That is, until the Asian financial crisis hit and now with the global economic crisis, there is not stopping the invasion.
Do not get me wrong as I am a fan of Asian TV more than the Western Counterpart as this is something that makes me proud coming from this part of the globe. We are so diverse in form and yet so alike in culture. Come to think of it, we are "cultured" people as well.
Going back to my fascination with Korea, I must admit that after seeing one too many of their drama shows and knowing some things about their culture, it made me even curious how is it to be Korean. To start with, I am beginning to enjoy K-Pop eventhough they sound at times like Western Boy Band covers, it fascinates me that they can put an Asian feel to it. Not entirely Asian but the blend and fusion of elements is something wonderful to look into. My wife and I also, from time to time, do sme channel surfing and keep our eyes glued to KBS World just to see what will be the next big thing in the Philippines.
Moreover, I want to experience the culture and know more about this part of Asia. I have travelled to quite a few countries and I want to put Korea in my itinerary. I'd love to go and visit their temples or just marvel at their architecture. I know that Seoul is not one of the most budget friendly places for foreigners but still, given a chance, I would make a go for it. but for now, I will just limit myself to their music and reading some bits of information about that country...oh and watching that funny Koreanovela, Boys over Flowers, on ABS-CBN every week night. ü
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Something I picked up in one of my lazy moments:
나는 당신을 사랑합니다
Don't know what it says exactly but I do know what it means! ü
I graduated from college in 2004. Back then, I still did not know what to do with my life. I finished library and information science but looking at my carrer path, based on my first real job, it seems that I will not be a "librarian" any time soon. For that I simply shrugged off the idea of going into graduate school. Well there was the general thinking that I have to have my graduate degree but back then, I simply did not know which course is best to take. I mean, it is not as simple as wishing to become a doctor simple because you have seen one too many episodes of Doogie Howser, MD when you were in 4th Grade. This is the real thing. I pay for my school and I simply could not afford to slack off. What best way to do it is to get a course that I will enjoy and put my creative juices into something that I am passionate about.
However, it seems that putting graduate school off for five years is a bit of a bad idea. Things would have been easier if I enrolled a year after graduation. In that case, the adjustment will not be as difficult as the one I am going through right now (not to mention distance education can be a a challenge -- more on that next time).
My trusty Packard Bell Notebook, fruit flavored tea, Philips audio component
and course materials. Companions for the next two nights...
Right now, I am pouring my brains out into a coursework that has a paper due on Saturday. The funny thing is that the only thing I know about my professor is his name and an email exchange introducing myself to him. No word since then and he expects me to understand a course module he did not even write. Ayayay!!!! It would have been easier if the course is something that is within my mental or should I say forte but since environment is something that I only do for a living, I will have to deal with it some more in order for me to be more "effective" at work. I complain a lot actually about this course as I felt that this was an impulsive and wreckless decision on my part but I think I have to deal with it since I could not afford to drop the subject and waste some of my hard earned money on this.
Solution: I will have to deal with it for the time being. Well only at least after September. Right now, I will burn the midnight oil and do my best to succeed. I know I can do it and I am just being whiny. Being a student again is something that I have been looking forward too for some time back now and now that its here, might as well make the best of it.
I am not a night person. In my past life, I would already be asleep by 9 pm. I adjusted an hour later some years after but still, I am not the person who burns the midnight oil. That is, unless things and deadlines are in a "matter-of-life-and-death" situation. But lately, I have been finding it hard to sleep early in the night. There are times that I would try hard to go to bed early only to wake up at past midnight and finding it difficult to gain my sleep back. I am not sure why and I am no person to analyze this kind of behavior. One thing I know is that it this type of late night "upper" has forced me to think. Think of many things especially on those that I want to do with my life.I have been known as a person who is ful of initiative but somehow lacks follow through. I admit that and at some point, I intentionally do so as well. I do not claim that I can change overnight nor I can just keep myself the way it is. I have so many things planned and I want them all to happen. I have a family of my own now and I do not want to disappoint.Lastly, self-quarantine is not a bad idea afterall. Aside from the occassional laziness and most of the time boring days, I am forced to rethink my life. My brothers often say that I am full of drama and can be an occassional escapist but I pride myself for being so. It keeps me grounded without being complacent. It makes me shows that I am weak but not necessarily lazy toughen up at the sight of the enemy. Myself.
By the time people are reading this, i have had my nth cup of tea and have wringed out the last of the creative juices out of my brains. I pride myslef for being a multi-tasker. I can do a whole lot of things at the same time without losing quality as much as I see it. But then again, recently I think I am slowly losing it. It is becuase of age? Change in priorities? Stress perhaps? I don't know.
I just got back from a week long meeting in Berlin and I must say that I did quite well in that meeting. Or probably people are being nice. But still, I can't help but think why is my brain productivity starting to diminish. I look at the people around me and see that they are all able to do things with ease and turn up their work quite well. But for, it will take days on end just to come about with some draft letters or a report. I remember taking me two full months just to draft an annual report for my office and losing a substantial part of my draft after it was submitted for review of my boss. For some reason, it seemed as if as days go by, things are falling out of place. *sigh*
I am lost yet again. I do not know what to do. But still, I do not want life to pass me by and miss out on a lot of good things. Great things even.
I have a whole career ahead of me. Probable not with the same office where I am now but some place where I can not only find stability but that tingling sense of fulfillment. I want to change. Change for the better even! I want to finish graduate school and even get a Ph.D. I want to see the world and experience the culture. I want to have kids and enjoy my time with them and my wife to the fullest extent possible. But right now, I just want to be like the Germans. Efficient and wonderful in so many ways.
I am talking nonsense here and probably missing a point or two. Must be jet lag, must be the deadlines I have, must be my frustrations at work. I don't know. All I know is that I need to change. Everyday I wanted to, I just don't know where to start. I guess I will start now. Start on the little things. Afterwards, jet lag, timelines and deadlines would not even matter.
Note: Random ramblings are not for class exhibition. They are classified under "How Not to Write a Composition" file of your teacher in English or Communication. But what the heck, this is my blog and I write however I feel like writing.
Today is the second day of the long weekend. Supposedly I am to do a lot of things especially at work. Brought home some refrence materials so I can finally work on my long overdue paper in the office but alas, I was not able to do anything. In fairness to me, we had visitors earlier today. Christine's friends from Geneva came over for lunc and we had a long day preparing for it, not to mention our flat needs some tidying.
As for me, so much work needs to be done and I am still not even up to half of it. I really need to get a hold of myself this time. I need that discipline that will make me accomplish things and yet still have time for my wife and myself.
I have so many things lined up actually starting this month. It's May and so many things are happening. I thank God for all the wonderful opportunities but just the same, I still need to create a balance. How will I do that? That remains to be seen. Right now, I will just work on whatever I can and deliver what needs to be delivered.
I want my groove back!
It has been a while since I had it. I don't really know what happened but one morning when I woke up, it was no longer there. We used to have so much fun together. With my groove, I am invincible. I am king. I can do just about everything!
But now it is gone. I think I lost it in the mids of the chaos and soul searching. I lost it. I want it back!
I have plans. I want to go places. I want to see the world. I want to be king again! I admit I cannot do everything, but just the feeling of being in control and not wanting things to just pass you by is a wonderful high!
I miss that feeling. Now I want it back. I want my groove back. I will not stop until I find it. Together, we will be free!
It has been a while since I last posted on my blog. I don't really konw what happened, or let's just call it technology fatigue or something. The point is, somehow, I just got tired of blogging and was seriously contemplating of shutting my blog down. But then again, sayang naman kung gagawin ko!
Bottomline is I am back and will do my very best to be religious in keeping this site alive. I know have very few followers and even people who are interested in what I am doing, but what the heck! I am on a mission lately. I am looking for my groove and I want to bring it back. If blogging will be one of the roads that will take me to my groove, then I shall do it.
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