I always take pride in being able to show courage and wisdom during the most stressful times. But yesterday, I had the scare of my life. I was with a friend when I saw an SMS from Tine saying that she is bleeding. My wife and I are 6 weeks pregnant and I couldn't just imagine losing that which we have so much been preparing for the last three years.
We prayed so hard to have a child. We actually planned that we would not get pregnant during the first two years of our marriage and then have a child afterwards. God has been so good to us that He answered our prayer when we asked for a child. But this time, we have to take care of that precious gift. I am not romanticizing but that is the way I want it to be right now. I love my wife and I will take care of her. But yesterday's experience made me think. What is it that we really want to happen?
I have faith that this pregnancy will push through and that we will have our baby in November. I am just anxious right now. It is a normal feeling and a way of humbling myself that at these time, I do not need to be in control. I have to reassure myself that God is really the one in control...
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